luck is so down , down , DOWN

been so stress at work , relation , family.
i think im gonna bang the wall one day soon.
fucking piss off by some idiots really.
they can be so nice in front of you , but end up stabbed you behind.
i realised that they are getting more and more plastic.
and make me believed that not everyone you-consider-friends can be trusted .
actually , im really sick and tired of all this.
i shall take my rest someday.

derrick is stress this few days , so am i
there really lots of things happened this few days.
be it those that can be solved and those not.
problems are all piling up like HDB flats.
one yet solve another came up.
im trying to look for the meaning of life seriously.
working for so long now , and i finally saw how ugly is the world.
there are so many things i been keeping to myself till i think im gonna burst soon.
im really fucking stress....
forget it , shall just stop it.

new guy -friend clarence went malaysia.
and i can finally free for one week from his messages.
after he comes back , everything starts again.
im sure he gonna pull me out for dinner when he is back.
meeting nizam on the 19th after celebrating siewching's birthday.
and this time round , i can finally see his bike after so long.
i miss him actually , and i got lots of things to tell him.
i just hope he dont fall asleep then.
oh..... i cant wait for friday !



ps : i just need someone to talk to right now.
keeping everything inside is toturing me !
there are so many unhappy , angry , unfair things happening to me.
and i seriously think that im bursting any time :(